Berry Snow Heart by Tina Phillips/FreeDigitalPhotos.net
Mirror, mirror on the wall
who is the ugliest one of all?
I am.
For all the times
my mouth has released words
that should have remained caged
For the hours, days, months
when I wallowed, weakened,
lost myself
Drowned.
For the moments
when I can’t see or hear others
because I’m too absorbed with myself
For all the things
I still have not corrected
I am.
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Mirror, mirror on the wall
who is the most beautiful one of all?
I am.
For all the times
I have found the strength to smile
while my heart was breaking
For the hours, days, months
that I know I suffered
and survived
Swam.
For the moments
when I am not oblivious to the beauty in this world
Trees. Flowers. Birdsong.
For all the things
that I am and know I can be
I am.
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mypastmademe 
This really tugged on my heart strings. Just beautiful.
Thank you. The conflict of my inner self I would say … so it’s a bit of this 😦 and a bit of that 🙂
there’s a lot of sadness in the voice of many of these poems, that very often suddenly changes into something uplifting. It can be disconcerting, like hearing a sad song that turns positive at the chorus.
You have described the very cycle which is currently frustrating me so much … the poems I have posted are a mixture, some from about 11 or 12 years ago, a very dark time for me, then a few from years later (my writing became sporadic), then some from the last 2 years when I’ve had major obstacles to overcome, although surviving my past (what a strange thing to type, but I will leave it in) made me strong enough to get through the last couple of years. In recent months I have felt so content, so happy, but then – like a rollercoaster – the track suddenly drops and I sink again. I think the time has come to find the path of self fulfillment, correct things in me (I don’t know how else to put it, since it’s how I feel) and be the person I know I can be, the person I know I am. I have found my blog to be a great release, and am very slowly starting to open up … maybe you don’t see it, but I am 🙂 Thanks for commenting, can’t believe you have described my current state of mind!