May you brighten up the velvet nights
a diamond amongst the stars.
May you paint magnificent rainbows
as you watch us from afar.
May you know I would do anything just for one more day,
I still have so much to tell you, so much more I need to say.
May you still remember the best of me,
may you somehow know the truth.
May you feel the neverending love
we will always have for you.
May we feel you stand beside us
seeing you without sight
May you share in the joy you gave us,
our beacon, our guiding light.
May you realise I still loved you,
always will, my precious soul
… that the words were said inside my head
… that you still made me whole
May you know I am lost without you,
my love, my dear, my sweet,
my heart now barely beating …
each day the greatest feat.
May you feel my thanks, my gratitude
for everything we shared
we packed so much in those few years
I still deeply loved and cared.
May you soar like an eagle,
my beautiful, innocent man,
not feel any sorrow or worry
… I’ll do the best I can.
May you walk alongside our children
feel their laughter, stem their tears,
guide them, love them, watch them
give them comfort through their fears.
May you always know the truth
of the feelings I still held for you,
that if I’d recognised my stubbornness
I’d have rushed to start anew.
Oh my love, I feel so broken
You are no longer here
So many things we went through,
now everything is clear.
Life, it overtook us,
clouded up our view;
something once so precious and perfect
took on a rusty hue.
We let our love escape, but you found it within again
yet I selfishly denied my own
fearful, too proud … and then
God took you
and destroyed me
I’ll never understand.
And it was only then I realised
that you’d always held my hand.
© mypastmademe.com 2016