I can feel the burgeoning swell in my chest

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“Input” by Idea go courtesy of http://www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

an expansion

making room for you

amidst my grief

A longing has surfaced



a door opened in my mind

the gateway to my heart

Tears threaten

wondering what will be

whether futility will mock

so I cling to signs

Symbols of mutual feeling

where there might be none

since you grieve too

Wondering if this knowing

resides only in my imagination

Awoken by the complete trust

fearful that I’m already falling

Hopeful that you feel it too

If not now, then one day


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Embryonic Recognition

"Romantic book" image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Romantic book” image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I have tried to keep the door shut

but your eyes have wedged it open

Pools of beauty,

drawing me in

I see right through you

My transparency probably equal

My will to run,

to resist,

much greater

Angst about disruption



Fear of hurt,

everything that could go wrong

a barricade to all that might be perfect

Yet there is a song in my heart

placed there by you

So whilst the ending is unknown

and the beginning is in question

I cannot deny

that with you

there is a story waiting to be told.

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Anticipatory mantra

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of http://www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net


I know not of the feel of a partner’s arms

the security and serenity of another’s love

I know not of beautified glances

the pleasurable allure of someone entranced

I care not for the material

the matter borne from money

I seek the vibrancy of a transcendent connection

the attraction and root pull of the core

I yearn not to wait,

not to know,

only to live

Keep the fire burning

and acknowledge the flicker of a new dawn

Embrace the deliverance

of inner peace

© mypastmademe.com 2014


Love Flames by Danilo Rizzuti

Love Flames by Danilo Rizzuti


The glowing fire of hurt

My feelings singed

My heart cocooned

from you, I thought

But still you reside there

So beautiful to see

Just out of reach

Enough distance to puncture

My armour, dissolved, useless

The silence is cutting

A million answers to the same question

Heard, but not believed

Have you run away?

Or do you really not want me?

© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013


“Scarecrow” by Evgeni Dinev/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Rampant in my imagination

Constant errors, infatuation

Yearning for the soulmate connection

An age of loneliness needs correction

Suffered have I, so much reflection

Thankful, grateful, abundant appreciation

Waiting for the signs of attraction

The layers beneath, the true affection

Waiting and looking was not my intention

©www.mypastmademe.com 2012


Electric City by Evgeni Dinev/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

A fleeting glance

and there he was

My past

My future?

The involuntary response

is angering

A tumult of emotion


at seeing him again


knowing I have no control

The alarm sounding,

red lights flashing

All this,

just from

a fleeting glance

© www.mypastmademe.com 2012

Emotional Suicide

Cloud Shaped Heart On Sky by iamharin/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

When he said it,

it felt like fairydust was being thrown from the heavens

When he looked in my eyes,

I felt my soul light up

When he pulled me towards him,

it felt like coming home

Our lips touching,

I was so thirsty for him

His gentle kisses on my neck,

so surreal

My heart fluttering,

my senses awakened,

my mind telling me

I’ve just jumped to my own death

© www.mypastmademe.com 2012

Impossible Possibility.

Burning Heart by chrisroll/FreeDigitalPhotos.net


It can’t be you!

  With your excruciating honesty

  and your unashamedly blunt opinions …

I am too sensitive a creature for you!

  With my worrying ways

  and heart pinned to my sleeve …

I know you have felt the same pain,

  deception ripping you to the core.

Even the years of devotion

  amount to the same number.

I know I love being in your company,

  your smile lighting up the room,

  opening a door in my heart.

But I didn’t think it was you …

It can’t be you?

© www.mypastmademe.com 2011


The wonder of tomorrow

Electric Connection by Idea go/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

There is truth in your eyes.

I see it glinting gold and amber,

  drawing me in.

But I can’t look for too long …


Can you feel the spark?

That indefinable something which makes me want to stay, to talk?

I don’t think about tomorrow,

The wonder of whether anything will happen

  is pushed away.

The right one will come to me

  and lay himself bare.

© www.mypastmademe.com 2011