Expansion.

 

I can feel the burgeoning swell in my chest

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an expansion

making room for you

amidst my grief

A longing has surfaced

undeniable

immutable

a door opened in my mind

the gateway to my heart

Tears threaten

wondering what will be

whether futility will mock

so I cling to signs

Symbols of mutual feeling

where there might be none

since you grieve too

Wondering if this knowing

resides only in my imagination

Awoken by the complete trust

fearful that I’m already falling

Hopeful that you feel it too

If not now, then one day

Soon.

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Embryonic Recognition

"Romantic book" image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Romantic book” image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I have tried to keep the door shut

but your eyes have wedged it open

Pools of beauty,

drawing me in

I see right through you

My transparency probably equal

My will to run,

to resist,

much greater

Angst about disruption

disorder

chaos

Fear of hurt,

everything that could go wrong

a barricade to all that might be perfect

Yet there is a song in my heart

placed there by you

So whilst the ending is unknown

and the beginning is in question

I cannot deny

that with you

there is a story waiting to be told.

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Anticipatory mantra

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of http://www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

I know not of the feel of a partner’s arms

the security and serenity of another’s love

I know not of beautified glances

the pleasurable allure of someone entranced

I care not for the material

the matter borne from money

I seek the vibrancy of a transcendent connection

the attraction and root pull of the core

I yearn not to wait,

not to know,

only to live

Keep the fire burning

and acknowledge the flicker of a new dawn

Embrace the deliverance

of inner peace

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Ablaze.

Love Flames by Danilo Rizzuti

Love Flames by Danilo Rizzuti

 

The glowing fire of hurt

My feelings singed

My heart cocooned

from you, I thought

But still you reside there

So beautiful to see

Just out of reach

Enough distance to puncture

My armour, dissolved, useless

The silence is cutting

A million answers to the same question

Heard, but not believed

Have you run away?

Or do you really not want me?

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Hanging

“Scarecrow” by Evgeni Dinev/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Rampant in my imagination

Constant errors, infatuation

Yearning for the soulmate connection

An age of loneliness needs correction

Suffered have I, so much reflection

Thankful, grateful, abundant appreciation

Waiting for the signs of attraction

The layers beneath, the true affection

Waiting and looking was not my intention

©www.mypastmademe.com 2012

Electrified

Electric City by Evgeni Dinev/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

A fleeting glance

and there he was

My past

My future?

The involuntary response

is angering

A tumult of emotion

Excitement

at seeing him again

Worry

knowing I have no control

The alarm sounding,

red lights flashing

All this,

just from

a fleeting glance

© www.mypastmademe.com 2012