Anticipatory mantra

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Balancing Zen Stones In Water by Master isolated images courtesy of http://www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

I know not of the feel of a partner’s arms

the security and serenity of another’s love

I know not of beautified glances

the pleasurable allure of someone entranced

I care not for the material

the matter borne from money

I seek the vibrancy of a transcendent connection

the attraction and root pull of the core

I yearn not to wait,

not to know,

only to live

Keep the fire burning

and acknowledge the flicker of a new dawn

Embrace the deliverance

of inner peace

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Angelic Inspiration

 

Golden Angel On White image courtesy of artur84 at www.freedigitalphotos.net

Golden Angel On White image courtesy of artur84 at http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

Nearly a year has passed

An arch of time

an ache within many hearts

Enveloped in reminders

thoughts left unsaid

Your smile steering me

your will inspiring

These things are decided

events which cannot be undone

Tears still flow

and you are still not here

I ask for help

in believing that you are.

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Vision of certainty.

Sunbeams In Forest by Evgeni Dinev courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Sunbeams In Forest by Evgeni Dinev courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There is no logic to the way I feel

No sense

Nor sensibility

I have imagined so many

Across a spans long gone

All who called to me

on a level only I felt

None of whom projected

what I thought I perceived

And I could let the darkness back in

Tread on the glass, drink the fear

but I am bathed with light

The shining realisation

that he will materialise one day

and reconnect to my soul

make sense of the world

and accept me wholly, gratefully

Lucid thoughts

packed away

compacted.

He will find me.

© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013

 

Elixir of hope

Small Waterfall by prozac1/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

It runs through my veins

in avenues and rivulets

collecting in my subconscious

It sweeps through me

like fire

without heat or pain

It spurs me on

 driving my creativity

reminding me that I’m worth it

Where once there was the poison of negativity

there is now an elixir of hope

‘Tis an intricate veil of wonder

this thing called self-belief

© mypastmademe.com 2012

Peekaboo!

Hello everyone!

Thanks to those subscribers who have stuck with me during my break – it’s appreciated, thank you 🙂  … and to those receiving this as an edited post, yes, I’m out of practice, sorry!  lol 🙂

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So this post finds me slightly tired, but very excited as I will be taking a very brave step within the next few minutes.  Having finished my first novel – well, my second strictly speaking – I am stepping into the daunting world of rejection by looking for an Agent.  I know, I know … brace myself!  Put some armour on!  I can hardly believe I’m doing it really.

It’s ridiculous how nervous I am and I’m sure it will pass once I’ve gone past the point of no return and clicked ‘send’ to my draft email.  There is a circus of contradiction going on in my head at the moment.  I mean, you’ve got to believe in yourself to get up the courage to try, but you’ve got to prepare yourself for rejection knowing the odds are against you.  It’s a twisted mixture of excitement and dread!

The other thing is this: it dawned on me earlier this afternoon that a lot of my nervousness is because I’m finally putting myself out there.  Instead of hiding away I’m going to be saying, “Look!  I’m here!  This is what I can do!”  Not my normal way of doing things, well, it hasn’t been for a while anyway.

So in the spirit of being brave, I think it’s time I revealed my identity … something so simple, but this is HUGE for me!!  I found great comfort in my anonymity.  So, I’m taking a deep breath now.   Are you ready?  *drumroll*

Terra Intera Davanti II Sole by Idea go

Hello world,

my name is Rosie Walsh.

Pleased to meet you 🙂

Wish me luck!

Bye for now  x

Sunset to Sunrise, Part II: Sunrise

Dawn by dan/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

Am I being told

  to wait

  stop looking

  not to be distracted by others?

Maybe I am to believe that bolt of knowledge …

My heart weighs heavy.

As I held that gorgeous lock of hair

  the emotion felt so powerful,

  a love so strong …

The root of belief has burrowed deep,

  so hard to destroy,

  to erase from my mind.

How can I miss someone I’ve never been close to?

© www.mypastmademe.com 2011

 

Nil Postage.

Hand And Heart by Idea go/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Will my Christmas card reach you this year?

Will the words I write

  spiral up into the sky,

  flutter like birds

  to be caught in your outstretched hands?

Will the love I feel for you

  compress itself into a ball of energy,

  an orb of emotion,

  with Heaven as its destination?

Can you see what is happening,

  how many are grieving,

  your spirit having left

  such a gaping hole in our lives?

Does time mean anything to you now,

  or is a clock just a memory from your past life?

I send you a card every day in my head,

  a letter of love,

  of loss.

You will stay on my Christmas card list.

My unreachable inspiration,

  my reminder to live life to the full.

I just won’t need a stamp any more.

© www.mypastmademe.com 2011

 

The wonder of tomorrow

Electric Connection by Idea go/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

There is truth in your eyes.

I see it glinting gold and amber,

  drawing me in.

But I can’t look for too long …

Daren’t.

Can you feel the spark?

That indefinable something which makes me want to stay, to talk?

I don’t think about tomorrow,

The wonder of whether anything will happen

  is pushed away.

The right one will come to me

  and lay himself bare.

© www.mypastmademe.com 2011