I know not of the feel of a partner’s arms
the security and serenity of another’s love
I know not of beautified glances
the pleasurable allure of someone entranced
I care not for the material
the matter borne from money
I seek the vibrancy of a transcendent connection
the attraction and root pull of the core
I yearn not to wait,
not to know,
only to live
Keep the fire burning
and acknowledge the flicker of a new dawn
Embrace the deliverance
of inner peace
© mypastmademe.com 2014
Nearly a year has passed
An arch of time
an ache within many hearts
Enveloped in reminders
thoughts left unsaid
Your smile steering me
your will inspiring
These things are decided
events which cannot be undone
Tears still flow
and you are still not here
I ask for help
in believing that you are.
© mypastmademe.com 2014
Sunbeams In Forest by Evgeni Dinev courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net
There is no logic to the way I feel
I have imagined so many
Across a spans long gone
All who called to me
on a level only I felt
None of whom projected
what I thought I perceived
And I could let the darkness back in
Tread on the glass, drink the fear
but I am bathed with light
The shining realisation
that he will materialise one day
and reconnect to my soul
make sense of the world
and accept me wholly, gratefully
He will find me.
© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013
Small Waterfall by prozac1/FreeDigitalPhotos.net
It runs through my veins
in avenues and rivulets
collecting in my subconscious
It sweeps through me
without heat or pain
It spurs me on
driving my creativity
reminding me that I’m worth it
Where once there was the poison of negativity
there is now an elixir of hope
‘Tis an intricate veil of wonder
this thing called self-belief
© mypastmademe.com 2012
The phoenix has risen from the ashes.
Thanks to those subscribers who have stuck with me during my break – it’s appreciated, thank you 🙂 … and to those receiving this as an edited post, yes, I’m out of practice, sorry! lol 🙂
Head by Salvatore Vuono/FreeDigitalPhotos.net
So this post finds me slightly tired, but very excited as I will be taking a very brave step within the next few minutes. Having finished my first novel – well, my second strictly speaking – I am stepping into the daunting world of rejection by looking for an Agent. I know, I know … brace myself! Put some armour on! I can hardly believe I’m doing it really.
It’s ridiculous how nervous I am and I’m sure it will pass once I’ve gone past the point of no return and clicked ‘send’ to my draft email. There is a circus of contradiction going on in my head at the moment. I mean, you’ve got to believe in yourself to get up the courage to try, but you’ve got to prepare yourself for rejection knowing the odds are against you. It’s a twisted mixture of excitement and dread!
The other thing is this: it dawned on me earlier this afternoon that a lot of my nervousness is because I’m finally putting myself out there. Instead of hiding away I’m going to be saying, “Look! I’m here! This is what I can do!” Not my normal way of doing things, well, it hasn’t been for a while anyway.
So in the spirit of being brave, I think it’s time I revealed my identity … something so simple, but this is HUGE for me!! I found great comfort in my anonymity. So, I’m taking a deep breath now. Are you ready? *drumroll*
Terra Intera Davanti II Sole by Idea go
my name is Rosie Walsh.
Pleased to meet you 🙂
Wish me luck!
Bye for now x
Dawn by dan/FreeDigitalPhotos.net
Am I being told
not to be distracted by others?
Maybe I am to believe that bolt of knowledge …
My heart weighs heavy.
As I held that gorgeous lock of hair
the emotion felt so powerful,
a love so strong …
The root of belief has burrowed deep,
so hard to destroy,
to erase from my mind.
How can I miss someone I’ve never been close to?
© www.mypastmademe.com 2011