Images bombard me,
plumes of butterflies
whenever I see
your beautiful face
All day long
The fear evaporated,
obstacles pushed away
knowing the inevitable truth
Drinking in every encounter,
awash with certainty
Breathless with anticipation
I yield.
© mypastmademe.com 2015
The energy has shifted,
my defences down,
revealing something of my true self.
Finally.
I am alive when I think of you,
yearning to lay beside you,
listen to the story of your life,
soothed by the lilt of your voice,
transfixed by those amber eyes,
lifted by the strength emanating from you,
protected in a way I have never known before.
You still and awaken me
simultaneously.
I am left powerless,
the allure enveloping,
the endearment of your quiet vulnerability
consuming.
It is only a matter of time
and I no longer wish to run.
© mypastmademe.com 2015
Texture of Sand by Sura Nualpradid courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net
In my rush to find you
Are you standing right before me?
Will your energies yield to mine when we meet?
Will the depth of your eyes melt my armour?
Your gaze transcend our surroundings?
Lifting me from this desolate space
where day moulds to day
and the lists grow longer
Responsibilities suffocating
Aspirations contracting
Guilt and selfishness consuming
Where are you, my love?
(Written in 2012)
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Inspiration S Tree by Marcus74id courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net
A hesitant footfall
atop glittering snow
My past compressed.
The air crisp, clean
Senses alert
Mind at ease.
Body encased by the cold
I take a full step
towards my future.
© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013
Sunbeams In Forest by Evgeni Dinev courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net
There is no logic to the way I feel
No sense
Nor sensibility
I have imagined so many
Across a spans long gone
All who called to me
on a level only I felt
None of whom projected
what I thought I perceived
And I could let the darkness back in
Tread on the glass, drink the fear
but I am bathed with light
The shining realisation
that he will materialise one day
and reconnect to my soul
make sense of the world
and accept me wholly, gratefully
Lucid thoughts
packed away
compacted.
He will find me.
© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013
Love Flames by Danilo Rizzuti
The glowing fire of hurt
My feelings singed
My heart cocooned
from you, I thought
But still you reside there
So beautiful to see
Just out of reach
Enough distance to puncture
My armour, dissolved, useless
The silence is cutting
A million answers to the same question
Heard, but not believed
Have you run away?
Or do you really not want me?
© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2013
Ladder Leading Up To The Sky by Sira Anamwong
I honestly thought it was you
I desperately wanted it to be you!
If it isn’t, why have you climbed back into my mind?
Your face, your smile … so vivid, so elusive …
I gave my power to you
which I now recall
Empowerment fuelled
It hurt too much when you closed the door
Revenge for when I closed it on you
I wish you well,
my love
Stay vanquished from my head, my heart
or come forward and claim what is yours:
My love.
© http://www.mypastmademe.com 2103
“Sun Ray Behind Dark Cloud” by Sura Nualpradid/FreeDigitalPhotos.net
Watching you sleep
magnetised to your presence
Aching for the feel of your touch
You alight my dreams
and calm my soul
Nesting in my subconscious
©www.mypastmademe.com 2012
“Confronting The Morning” by prozac1/www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net
I said I’d wait for you
this man, the one I dreamed of
So sure you’d find me,
be led into my life
The gap it lengthens so …
tiredness setting in
My weary heart needing a friend
a bond
Doubt seeping through,
the membrane thinning
Wrong choices now feared
I can’t work out who you are …
©www.mypastmademe.com 2012
Two Hearts by jscreationzs/www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net
I know you felt it too
the surge of connection
the will to be one
Your eyes full of answers
my destiny
Electricity noticed by others
trapping my vulnerable heart
Foraging for memories
of the years when we knew little
And I realise now
that it was always so
We were already enmeshed …
But you found another
leaving my soul aching
yearning
pining for something that cannot be
©www.mypastmademe.com 2012
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