Frozen Heart.

 

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I can feel my heart hardening again

frosting over

the shards of ice melding together

Frozen solid

the construction of an impenetrable fortress building

once again

No more do I dream of knights and saviours

eyes wide open, surveying instead

the players

the disillusioned

It doesn’t serve to be open

in affairs of the heart

My honesty a toxic poison

Better to remain concealed:

The Dreamer.

There is safety in dreams

and pain in the reality of being ‘too much’.

©mypastmademe.com 2016

Embryonic Recognition

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“Romantic book” image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I have tried to keep the door shut

but your eyes have wedged it open

Pools of beauty,

drawing me in

I see right through you

My transparency probably equal

My will to run,

to resist,

much greater

Angst about disruption

disorder

chaos

Fear of hurt,

everything that could go wrong

a barricade to all that might be perfect

Yet there is a song in my heart

placed there by you

So whilst the ending is unknown

and the beginning is in question

I cannot deny

that with you

there is a story waiting to be told.

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Abeyance

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A Male Angel On Patrol by farconville courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

Weariness strangles me

The thief of time delights

Another day of ill achievement

the waiting list shelved

so the demon conscience mocks

Prompting the angel wings to spread

The span high and wide

Serenity and encouragement step forth

  and so I remove the noose

  threatening to choke me

My failings laid bare

My fears eschewed

For now at least …

(Written in 2012)
© mypastmademe.com 2014

Deletion of Fear

 

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Sailing The Memory Stock Photo by sattva courtesy of http://www.FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

Inscriptions of rejection are dissolved

The passage of time has healed the wounds

I stand alone, determining my direction

I want to eliminate my past

folding the lessons within

It is hard to keep the walls down

resist the urge to protect

Fear of being hurt again collides

with the courage to reveal myself

The time has come to open the gates

and let someone in.

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Prophecy Overturned.

You will suffer heartbreak

You will be fearful of your protector

You will escape only to be imprisoned

Your heart will be healed, only to be burned

You will be haunted by deceit

You will cry enough tears for three

You will be left with nothing

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I have everything I need

And more.

My heart is full.

My spirit shines.

I want for nothing.

© www.mypastmademe.com