Spurious Barricade.

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The swell of grief entombs me

traps my spirit

caged

crushed.

When I smile

guilt soaks me

the sting of tears mocking.

A barrage of realisations,

revealing what I let die

the beauty I suffocated

in my eagerness to be free.

Except I never asked for my freedom …

you chose it

and then I locked you out.

All my promises of love

washed away by my own selfishness.

So now regret consumes me

and my only reason to carry on

is the legacy you left.

How I wish you hadn’t

left me.

©mypastmademe.com 2016

 

 

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Futile rupture

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I have waded through problems

Trudged forwards

for years

Shining at times,

illuminated by my determination

Gilded with hope for a future

without pain

Buried my love for you

shielded my heart

bound it tightly

… so even those 3 words

couldn’t break it open

Then one morning

the phone call

And my heart shattered.

The love ruptured

pouring from the depths of my being

with nowhere to go

Such a blind, selfish fool

I was

Now wracked with guilt

Ravaged by regret

You were my beacon all along

My love.

My soulmate.

My loss.

©mypastmademe.com 2016

Fatal Recognition

Images bombard me,

plumes of butterflies

whenever I see

your beautiful face

All day long

The fear evaporated,

obstacles pushed away

knowing the inevitable truth

Drinking in every encounter,

awash with certainty

Breathless with anticipation

I yield.

© mypastmademe.com 2015

Entranced

The energy has shifted,

my defences down,

revealing something of my true self.

Finally.

I am alive when I think of you,

yearning to lay beside you,

listen to the story of your life,

soothed by the lilt of your voice,

transfixed by those amber eyes,

lifted by the strength emanating from you,

protected in a way I have never known before.

You still and awaken me

simultaneously.

I am left powerless,

the allure enveloping,

the endearment of your quiet vulnerability

consuming.

It is only a matter of time

and I no longer wish to run.

© mypastmademe.com 2015

 

 

 

Mind over heart

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A candle burns

the flame tapered

as hot as the passion

inscribed on their faces

Lovers cradling hearts

mouths exploring

skin on fire

for the other’s touch

She yields to him

handing over lock and key

her biggest sin

unto herself

Yield, by all means,

but the key …

hoard it

hide it

unless he succumbs wholly

offers everything of himself

for a love that will burn endlessly

 

© mypastmademe.com 2014

Farewell.

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You left a blueprint on my heart

Taught me what I needed to know,

the qualities I should expect,

how I should be cherished.

It was never meant to be

yet we were linked,

locked,

on another level

from a distant past,

forgotten lives.

You roused my memory,

awoke my heart

and now you are free.

Soar, my love

Angelic lesson

You will leave rainbows in your wake.

© mypastmademe.com 2014