Unforeseen Diversion

"Stairs" Image courtesy of Adam Hickmott at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Stairs” image courtesy of Adam Hickmott at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

It was an unknown fragility

paper thin,

a crisp leaf underfoot

Growing up behind a gossamer veil

indiscernible,

masking my weaknesses

Now torn, a gaping hole

clarity abounds

with bitter obviosity

So I am left the fool.

My self-perception cradled

in the palm of my hand.

The facets of my personality

unknowingly attributed to something else.

My inner monologue shifting

between vitriolic criticism

and soothing compassion.

Pity is shunned

in the wake of a new freedom

discovering that I was on the underpass,

prevented from reaching the surface

where I now stand:

vulnerable

resilient

authentic.

My true self.

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Embryonic Recognition

"Romantic book" image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

“Romantic book” image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I have tried to keep the door shut

but your eyes have wedged it open

Pools of beauty,

drawing me in

I see right through you

My transparency probably equal

My will to run,

to resist,

much greater

Angst about disruption

disorder

chaos

Fear of hurt,

everything that could go wrong

a barricade to all that might be perfect

Yet there is a song in my heart

placed there by you

So whilst the ending is unknown

and the beginning is in question

I cannot deny

that with you

there is a story waiting to be told.

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Glass half full

Sunrise Behind Trees by dan/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

A flurry of confusion has passed

trapped in a dizzying spin,

a cycle of questions

Trying to fill the void

which I myself create

Reaching out to others

though I hold the answers

within myself

No accessories needed

only the miracles borne from me

Life presented an unplanned reality

but this skittle is still standing

defying logic

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Resurgence

Crystal Chandelier by Nutdanai Apikhomboonwaroot/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Challenges used to call

relished

faced

Confidence would suffocate fear

complete

smothered

Positive would quash negative

fuelled

encouraged

These are the facets now discoloured

smudged

Traits within, long since trampled

buried

The rope of youth hangs near

trailing from the skies of my conscience

Climb it, I will

Pull myself up

Preserve my spirit

Soar

like I once did

© www.mypastmademe.com 2012

Girl On Swing by Vlado/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

Essence

Splash Green by Idea go/FreeDigitalPhotos.net

A mist descends

soft blanket of calm

Quelling the sadness

filling the void

Smiles step forth

The reins of seriousness are cut

Memories of carefree times

body succumbing to music

My form found

One foot planted

in a field of responsibility,

the other

longing for freedom

a splash of it

just sometimes

so I don’t forget

how to be me

© www.mypastmademe.com 2012