Pain.  Tears.  Horror.  Shock.  Heartbreak.  Sadness.  Joy.  Humiliation.  Embarrassment.  Disappointment.  Confusion.  Loneliness.  Anger.  Wrath.  Scorn.  Worry.  Fear.  Jealousy.  Hatred.  Disgust.  Loathing.  Love.  Lies.

These are the words of my distant past.

I then found new words, mixed in with some old ones:

Adulation.  Jealousy.  Love.  Lust.  Lies.  Confusion.  Joy.  Safety.  Happiness.  Sadness.  Disappointment.  Spontaneous.  Surprising.  Forever.  Sexy.  Loveable.  Appreciated.  Grateful.  Beautiful.

but I had to delete the most important one: 

Forever

Now I have a new dictionary and these are my words:

Content.  Happy.  Free.  Loved.  Appreciated.  Responsible.  Eternal.  Successful.  Mother.  Fulfilled.

I am the master of my own destiny.

I am the dreamer of dreams*.

* Willy Wonka: We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams.