Entranced

The energy has shifted,

my defences down,

revealing something of my true self.

Finally.

I am alive when I think of you,

yearning to lay beside you,

listen to the story of your life,

soothed by the lilt of your voice,

transfixed by those amber eyes,

lifted by the strength emanating from you,

protected in a way I have never known before.

You still and awaken me

simultaneously.

I am left powerless,

the allure enveloping,

the endearment of your quiet vulnerability

consuming.

It is only a matter of time

and I no longer wish to run.

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Unforeseen Diversion

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“Stairs” image courtesy of Adam Hickmott at FreeDigitalPhotos.net

 

It was an unknown fragility

paper thin,

a crisp leaf underfoot

Growing up behind a gossamer veil

indiscernible,

masking my weaknesses

Now torn, a gaping hole

clarity abounds

with bitter obviosity

So I am left the fool.

My self-perception cradled

in the palm of my hand.

The facets of my personality

unknowingly attributed to something else.

My inner monologue shifting

between vitriolic criticism

and soothing compassion.

Pity is shunned

in the wake of a new freedom

discovering that I was on the underpass,

prevented from reaching the surface

where I now stand:

vulnerable

resilient

authentic.

My true self.

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Embryonic Recognition

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“Romantic book” image by dan courtesy of FreeDigitalPhotos.net

I have tried to keep the door shut

but your eyes have wedged it open

Pools of beauty,

drawing me in

I see right through you

My transparency probably equal

My will to run,

to resist,

much greater

Angst about disruption

disorder

chaos

Fear of hurt,

everything that could go wrong

a barricade to all that might be perfect

Yet there is a song in my heart

placed there by you

So whilst the ending is unknown

and the beginning is in question

I cannot deny

that with you

there is a story waiting to be told.

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Peaceful infusion

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Heart Shaped Cloud by tokyoboy courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

The once fervent grasp

  beseeching

  searching

has loosened.

Wilted by the sun

drained of vigour

diminished.

The focus turns to self

  diffused of anger

  infused with peace

  bemused at the past.

The predatory pain quashed

leaving my heart free

and my dreams alive.

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Nature’s warmth

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Sunflower by patrisyu courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

The fragrance of freedom

all enveloping

as I sit and absorb

the furls of summer

the fronds of a lightened season

The heavy curtains of winter

drawn back

fixed to let the light in

Windows open

  of the mind

  of the heart

to evacuate negativity

Its smoky vapours disappearing

chased away

by this welcome chapter

breathing life into long, hazy days

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Healed.

What of these years?

The transference from weak to strong

What of those thoughts?

Lifted from darkness to white light

A puncture of time

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Wallpaper Blue by Idea go courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

distilled sadness

bottled, diluted

evaporated by contentment

That easy feeling of self-love

a cessation of searching

For under every stone

behind every tree

I find myself

My soul staring back at me

life force illuminated

guardian’s wings enveloping

encouraging me forwards

 

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Farewell.

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Green Field And Rainbow by Anusorn P nachol courtesy of http://www.freedigitalphotos.net

You left a blueprint on my heart

Taught me what I needed to know,

the qualities I should expect,

how I should be cherished.

It was never meant to be

yet we were linked,

locked,

on another level

from a distant past,

forgotten lives.

You roused my memory,

awoke my heart

and now you are free.

Soar, my love

Angelic lesson

You will leave rainbows in your wake.

© mypastmademe.com 2014