Pain. Tears. Horror. Shock. Heartbreak. Sadness. Joy. Humiliation. Embarrassment. Disappointment. Confusion. Loneliness. Anger. Wrath. Scorn. Worry. Fear. Jealousy. Hatred. Disgust. Loathing. Love. Lies.
These are the words of my distant past.
I then found new words, mixed in with some old ones:
Adulation. Jealousy. Love. Lust. Lies. Confusion. Joy. Safety. Happiness. Sadness. Disappointment. Spontaneous. Surprising. Forever. Sexy. Loveable. Appreciated. Grateful. Beautiful.
but I had to delete the most important one:
Forever
Now I have a new dictionary and these are my words:
Content. Happy. Free. Loved. Appreciated. Responsible. Eternal. Successful. Mother. Fulfilled.
I am the master of my own destiny.
I am the dreamer of dreams*.
* Willy Wonka: We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams.